IF her son is executed, Robyn Davis has only his prison shirt and letters to remember him by.
Matthew Norman,19, is on trial in Bali for his alleged role in a drug trafficking network.
He, and the rest of the Bali 9, face the death penalty if convicted.
Ms Davis was told over Christmas to expect a sentence to be handed down towards the end of February. She fears the worst – but hopes for the best.
Ms Davis left her Port Macquarie home in December to visit Norman in Bali.
She returned with a memento of the most difficult 10 months of her life: the prison shirt Norman wore when he was first arrested.
Norman asked her to take the shirt, just as he has asked her to keep his letters.
The rest of his belongings are with his father.
The recent trip, Ms Davis said, was the most difficult for her so far.
To learn the date when her son's fate could be decided has left her stomach churning.
Norman's stomach is churning, too. He's been ill since finding out the sentence dates.
"Since getting a time for the trial, my belly has been going around in circles," Ms Davis said.
"It's a time to find out if my son will survive or die. I'm dreading it.
"He (Norman) is worrying about it. That's why he is not well.
"I pray that he won't die."
Ms Davis fears the judges will come down harshly on the Bali 9.
She believes the recent criticism of the Indonesian judges, after model Michelle Leslie was let off with a much lighter sentence for possessing ecstasy pills, may force them to come down harder on the Bali 9.
It will be a long month for Ms Davis. Norman's case is ongoing, and she is waiting for confirmation of sentence dates so she can return to Bali.
"If my son dies, I'm suing the federal police for not waiting until they got home to set up the big guys," she said.
"I can't see how they could shoot him (Norman) if he had nothing on him. If they do, justice sucks."